merrilymemory ([personal profile] merrilymemory) wrote2008-05-11 12:43 pm

♪ it's only love ♫

Happy Mother's Day, Momma. I'm still trying to make you proud, and I'm sorry when I slip up. I wish you could be here with me, but I am still trying to impress you, prove to you I'm not going to lose. I know I came close so many times before, but you were always there to pick me up. It's harder now, but I think of you, always. I will always love you, and I will always miss you. I will never lose, because I am your child, and you never gave up. I will not let anything or anyone pull me under.

I wish I could remember your voice. I would give anything to hear your voice again, just one more time.

Gary told me, for the first time, about that boyfriend you had. Or maybe it was my dad, and he was trying to protect my feelings. I wish I could have heard that from you. I wish you had never been hit, but I am so proud of you, for leaving him.

I wish I had known you better. I was such a selfish child. I lied about you constantly. I pretended to hate you so much. I'm sorry I ever said anything ill of you that was never warranted.

I want to be with you again. I wish I had the faith to know that you're waiting for me.

Please be waiting for me.

[identity profile] 2008-05-11 06:36 pm (UTC)(link)
I didn't know you lost your mother. I'm sorry to hear that :( I couldn't imagine growing up without one. She's definitely still waiting for you. *hugs*

[identity profile] 2008-05-11 06:41 pm (UTC)(link)
It's alright. It happened in late '06, so it wasn't too long ago. I don't remember sounds well, and her voice has been lost to me.

Thank you, though. I appreciate it a whole bunch. ♥

[identity profile] 2008-05-11 06:44 pm (UTC)(link)
I lost my dad a year ago (I think I told you). For us girls, it's definitely not the same as losing a mom, but it still hurts, so I know what's it's like to lose a parent.

[identity profile] 2008-05-11 06:49 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, I think you told me that. It means a lot of me that I know someone can relate, even though it's horrible circumstances. *hugs*
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[identity profile] 2008-05-12 01:01 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you, Nicole. ._. You always say that, and you always make me feel good about myself. I appreciate you more than you know.
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[identity profile] 2008-05-12 01:03 am (UTC)(link)
Hey, don't worry about it. ♥ You're always so nice to me, I couldn't ask for anything more.

[identity profile] 2008-05-11 09:40 pm (UTC)(link)

You guys are beautiful.

[identity profile] 2008-05-12 01:03 am (UTC)(link)
*clings* Thank you, Hildred. @_@

[identity profile] 2008-05-11 11:12 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm sorry for your mom's passing... I'm sure she's waiting for you and watching you from somewhere, excited that she had the chance to raise such a wonderful child. I can tell you that she's proud of how far you've gone and how strong you became.

-Hugs you- If you need someone, I'm right here ;_;

[identity profile] 2008-05-12 01:04 am (UTC)(link)
I know, babe. ;_; I love you for it.

I really hope she is around, but you know me, always questioning stuff like that. ♥ Thank you, Neph.

[identity profile] 2008-05-12 01:51 am (UTC)(link)
-nods- You're welcome.
Also, now that I reread your post, I'm half-tempted to rickroll you, but I'm not because I'm nice about it... unless you want me to 8D

[identity profile] 2008-05-12 01:53 am (UTC)(link)
XD!! Why do you want to rickroll me exactly? I'm confused.

I don't know, though. You can't rickroll me if I'm expecting it... Maybe you should wait a few days. *loves being rickroll'd*


[identity profile] 2008-05-12 03:27 am (UTC)(link)
"because I am your child, and you never gave up."

[identity profile] 2008-05-12 03:52 am (UTC)(link)
D'oh! Stupid Britti. ;3 I deserve a rickroll now.

[identity profile] 2008-05-12 04:16 am (UTC)(link)
lalala~ ='D

[identity profile] 2008-05-12 04:19 am (UTC)(link)
XD!! Well, I think she did make me a cry. A lot. But otherwise, YEP!

[identity profile] 2008-05-11 11:21 pm (UTC)(link)
This made me cry. ;___; *huggles*

[identity profile] 2008-05-12 01:05 am (UTC)(link)
;_; I didn't mean to make you cry, Raiko. *huggles back* Thank you, though.

[identity profile] 2008-05-12 01:05 am (UTC)(link)
^_^ ♥