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Happy Mother's Day, Momma. I'm still trying to make you proud, and I'm sorry when I slip up. I wish you could be here with me, but I am still trying to impress you, prove to you I'm not going to lose. I know I came close so many times before, but you were always there to pick me up. It's harder now, but I think of you, always. I will always love you, and I will always miss you. I will never lose, because I am your child, and you never gave up. I will not let anything or anyone pull me under.

I wish I could remember your voice. I would give anything to hear your voice again, just one more time.

Gary told me, for the first time, about that boyfriend you had. Or maybe it was my dad, and he was trying to protect my feelings. I wish I could have heard that from you. I wish you had never been hit, but I am so proud of you, for leaving him.

I wish I had known you better. I was such a selfish child. I lied about you constantly. I pretended to hate you so much. I'm sorry I ever said anything ill of you that was never warranted.

I want to be with you again. I wish I had the faith to know that you're waiting for me.

Please be waiting for me.

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Date: 2008-05-11 06:36 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kajouka.livejournal.com
I didn't know you lost your mother. I'm sorry to hear that :( I couldn't imagine growing up without one. She's definitely still waiting for you. *hugs*

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Date: 2008-05-11 06:41 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] merrilymemory.livejournal.com
It's alright. It happened in late '06, so it wasn't too long ago. I don't remember sounds well, and her voice has been lost to me.

Thank you, though. I appreciate it a whole bunch. ♥

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Date: 2008-05-11 06:44 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kajouka.livejournal.com
I lost my dad a year ago (I think I told you). For us girls, it's definitely not the same as losing a mom, but it still hurts, so I know what's it's like to lose a parent.

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Date: 2008-05-11 06:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] merrilymemory.livejournal.com
Yeah, I think you told me that. It means a lot of me that I know someone can relate, even though it's horrible circumstances. *hugs*

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